- wonderinG arOund -

MorninG~
its tuesday. 02.03.2010.

i hope today will be a good day for me =)
i miss home.
i miss u mOm..

mOms birthday is on 29 feb. but cuz of its happen to be in a leap year.
we usually celebrate it on 28.
this year. i cant celebrate mom bday cuz im here sTuck at this hell city.. T_T
nvm.. i wisH u will be find n healthy always mom. i love u sO mUcH..

yesterday..
hmm..
there's a lot of things happen yesterday.

duit mara x msUk..
im EXcidentally open my ex bloG.. zzz ..
then.. last but not least.
hmm..
friends? this is a very complicated subject i guess..
i cant explain it here..
huhu..

duit mara bila mo masUk nie?
aku x sabar ni mo beli psp.. haiz..
demam sua aku nie gara2 psp. hoho..

erm.. my ex BloG?
like i said.. im excidentally oPen it.
since we've broke uP. until yesterday.
ive nvr open her bloG...

ive read sOme post.. which she write something abouT me.
but i don't feel anythinG lorh..
there's 1 post she write that she hate me.
cuz im lying to her all this time..
curse n watsoever..
cuz im wearing a necklace wHich were given by my eX. b4 her..

u kNow what dear?
b4 u wanna blame me 4 that one simple things.
u should blame urself lorh..
ive had enough oo .. blaming myself for love.
ENOUGH.. u know..
u want me to hate u?
yea.. i do hate u.
4 everything ur lie to me.
pretending that nvr done anything wrong to me.. keep blaming me. zzz..
donow la.. its uP to u babe.
wanna blame me o watsoever.
I DONT CARE.

u wanna know? who gv me strenght when i was down?
who cheer me Up when i feel this whOle world was turn uP side down?
its her..
eventhough she lied to me. she hurt me really demn muCh.
still.. she said. im sorry.. ive hurt u. i know im wronG.
but pls.. if u ever feel alone n empty. im here 4 u..

and U??
u jz quite. n hOpe things will getting better 4 me?
fuCk off la wei.. its u getting better. not me.. u r now farking happy with ur new bf.
n me? im stuck here afraid to love and to be love..
u thought im coming back to my ex aa?
wei.. im wearing wat she gv to me. doesnt mean im with her again la..
i appreciate what she gv me.
yes. i love her. until this moment i love her..
even she is far away from me.
n ive never contact her anymore. she hv new bf too maybe..
i still love her.
does it gt problem with u? u want me to love u? when u fucking make me hate u..
haiz..
sometimes. we need to use our brain to think ok. u want ppl love u. appreciate u.
do something about it. prove that u r more better than what he imagine.
dont jz simply said love me. love me. love me.
but u dont do anything..
zzz.. enough le..
im sorry 4 everything wat i said k.. my harsh words n watsoever..
how muCh pain u left on me.. how hurt i am.
it doesn'nt matter anyway..
whats important now. u hv a new bf..
i pray 4 ur happiness..
like i said. i wont disturb both of u.. like i dont want u to disturb me too..
i hope u'll be happy with him..
may both of u. hv a nice journey ahead.
thx 4 everything good u ever done to me.
im not a good bf. n im really sorry 4 that.

hmm.. enough typing i guess.. haha..

- thx 4 proving to me, that all love is the same. all will betrayed me -
~ TQ ~