Rindu..

 Honeymoon di Bali 2013

 Extravaganza Bangkok 2013 : Floating Market

 Birthday Husband 2013 : 24 tahun

 Birthday surprise oleh husband di MyInn hotel LD. Time ni belum habis pantang lahirkan Saif Al Furqan :) 2014

 Akikah Saif Al Furqan 2014 : 21 hari ;)

 Extravaganza Bangkok 2013

Bangkok 2014 

On the way ke majlis kahwin Rusdi Mac 2016

How Long Will I Love You

Ellie Goulding

How long will I love you

As long as stars are above you

And longer if I can

How long will I need you

As long as the seasons need to

Follow their plan

How long will I be with you

As long as the sea is bound to

Wash up on the sand

How long will I want you

As long as you want me to

And longer by far

How long will I hold you

As long as your father told you

As long as you can

How long will I give to you

As long as I live through you

However long you say

How…

Laguni..sempat kami dengar sama sama malam sebelum arwah dikejarkan ke hospital keesokan paginya. sambil ketawa ketawa lagi sebab playlist tab aku yg 'too obsolete' tiada sda lagu lagu baru mcm zaman belajar dulu. haha cerita cerita santai santai ja kami malam tu. dia baring di atas katil aku duduk di tepi katil. siapa tau kan..itu last :( 

ok. berbalik kpd lagu ni. lagu ni ost satu movie org putih ni about time. kami tengok sama sama di rumah sewa lama dlu di taman aman 2 Lahad Datu. nah kau detail aku bagi sebab..xmau luput dari ingatan aku. Arwah suka tengok movie org putih ni tp yg action movie. aku plak suka love story apa apa bangsa punya movie la, yg penting love story. ;) yg akhirnya akupun pandai tertidur tidur jg tengok! haha! xboleh bagi komitmen langsung movie movie ni or drama drama laa..sebab aku rasa aku mau menikmati realiti hidup aku, sebab xkan berulang semua tu. mungkin berulang tapi tidak lagi sama mcm yg dulu. 

ok u turn balik cerita aku malam tu bersama arwah..selain dengar dengar lagu yg agak obsolete tu. kami sempat jg cerita cerita pasal saat saat akhir bila roh berpisah daripada jasad. 'b..syg dengar tazkirah malam jumaat hari tu. ni syg x ckp siapa2 la ya. sebab x semestinya b sakit b yg pergi dulu. who knows..syg ni sihat xda sebab untuk tidak mati klu ajal sda sampai kan.Ust tu cakap (seingat aku la..ust Ahmad Dusuki) nt syaitan pandai datang ajak kita ikut sama dia ba kan'..husband: yaa..ada jg b dengar ceramah tu. memang pun.. setakat itu ja yg aku ingat pasal coversation tu. tp lepas ni klu aku ingat nt aku update lg. Yang pastinya conversation tu buat aku kuat bertahan 2 malam 2 hari di hospital tu klu boleh xmau stop bisik di telinganya kalimah Lailaha Illallah.. Alhamdulillah Allah bagi aku peluang itu. Memang betullah apa apa pun yg kita buat ikhlas Lillahi Taala pasti akan berbuah rasa kemanisan di dalam hati. Kemanisan yang sampai bila bila kau mau rasa setiap masa setiap saat di setiap hembusan nafasmu. Subhanallah..Maha suci Allah.

"..Alhamdulillah Allah bagi aku peluang itu. Memang betullah apa apa pun yg kita buat ikhlas Lillahi Taala pasti akan berbuah rasa kemanisan di dalam hati. Kemanisan yang sampai bila bila kau mau rasa setiap masa setiap saat di setiap hembusan nafasmu. Subhanallah..Maha suci Allah..."

Malam tu jg arwah sempat pesan yg dia mau guna laptop. Mau transfer derma untuk kawan group IRIZ nya..Semoga niat baiknya itu mendapat ganjaran pahala disisi Allah. amin.. Mari sama sama kita sedekahkan Al Fatihah buat arwah semoga dia ditempatkan di tempat yg paling baik disisi Allah..amin :)

The wife

Mulai saat ini setiap post yg kena publish adalah tulisan dari isteri arwah Zakwanyzan. Jadi sudah pasti setiap kata kata mungkin tidak sama dari segi idea, cara penulisan dan juga sudut pandangan. Saja saja mengisi blog untuk mengubat rindu. 

Blog ni saya pernah baca masa awal awal mau berkawan dulu. itupun belum baca habis. Syukur juga ada blog ni bolehlah sedikit sebanyak ubati rindu tu sikit sikit. mungkin x juga sikit..banyak kali :) Lepas ni boleh la anak anak pulak baca kan. inshaa Allah,

Until Jannah

Indahnya..

Bila bercinta kerna Allah.

di mana pun dia

Berapa jauh pun dia

Masih terasa akan kasih sayangnya

kerna yang pasti

Selagi Allah s.w.t di hati

Cinta

akan sentiasa segar bersemadi.

Selamat ulang tahun yang keempat sang suami. 

My son, Saif Alfurqan. He was born with a symbradactily on his left hand. Which makes the hand smaller than the other hand. Me n my wife nvr knew this until the day he was born. Medical terms cant define the exact reason as why did this happen, there's nothing the mother do or don't that make this happen. This occur about 1 in 32000 newborn, 

I feel sad, empty, angry, and so many negative emotion the moment i knew about this. Why us? Why my child? i have so many question with no one to answer. 

Now, after almost 3 month pampering, loving, caring, diapers changing and etc of my baby. I understand, that Allah hv a better plan for me n my family. This is a gift, a gift in which Allah knows in sha Allah we can love him, protect him, and nuture him to be the best person in this world. And most important of it all, to be the imam of the muttaqin. 

This is my words for u my son. 
Do remember Abah and mama always love u. Be strong, and always hv faith in Allah. You will be most successful in this life and the hereafter. 

TQ Allah. Semoga ak menjadi hamba mu yg bertakwa.

21.3.2013

Alhamdulillah, after a long year break of writing anything, finally I'm back. As u guys can see in that picture, there's lots of things happen through out the year, 21.3.2013 is the date of my solemnization with my wife. I do need to write this as this is the changing phase of my life. History which can't be change forever. 

That morning, I feel nervous, happy, excited, joy, sad, and so many other feelings which I can't explain. Well, I believe everyone that are married knew this feeling. Anyway, the solemnization getting placed at my wife home at Semporna. and it's happen right after Zohor prayer. Sumaidah binti Anam is officially my wife.

Tq Allah, I do feel blessed and in sha Allah, I will do my best to be a good husband to my wife. 

Now, its 31.1.2014. Almost a year of living married life, and still I do love and feel happy with my wife. Challenge do comes and go, and yet how u deal with it matters. All those challenge grows u, and the beautiful thing about getting married is, u are not alone. The challenge of life seems easy with our love ones beside us. may Allah keep our love together, and bless our love always. 

Today, not only we are happily married, Allah also bless us with a child. Few more weeks left before his/her delivery. In sha Allah we are expecting a baby boy. 

Feeling? only Allah knows how it feels to be a husband, and soon to be a father. I know, this is not an easy task of life. Its a lifetime responsibility, and I pray Allah bless me and my wife to be the best mother and father for our child, and may Allah bless us with a child with a solid Iman through out his life. 

2013 is a very memorable year for me, and I believe 2014 has many surprise for me ahead. oh Allah, bless my parents always as they have bless me with so many favor in life and I do pray U unite our family with Iman and Taqwa in our heart. Tq Allah for everything. 

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how to diet? 

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selamat hari raya.

Alhamdulillah. setelah sekian lama menyepi, dapat jg aku luang masa tulis something di blog aku nie. Indeed, its been months since my last update. There's lot of things happen recently, good and bad and still aku bersyukur dgn semua yang Allah telah tentukan.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua umat islam sedunia. Maaf zahir dan batin kepada semua yg mengenali diri ini. Kita tidak tahu bila ajal akan datang menjemput, aku harap siapa2 yang ada aku sakitkan hati, buat perkara2 yang menyinggung, terhutang duit, makan or anything. Forgive me. May Allah bless all of us.

Tema raya tahun ini, hijau! yuhuu.. Herbalife family.
Alhamdulillah. All the family member doing well, mudah-mudahan Allah berkati my family and limpahkan rahmat dan kurnianya pada kami. insyaAllah.

Goodbye student life

2007

datang ke shah alam, bersama ayah dan emak. Mereka menghantar daku dgn harapan untuk aku berjaya dalam pelajaran daku.

aku masih ingat, pada hari pertama aku masuk ke rumah sewa aku.

rumah tingkat 4, berbekalkan barang2 yang byk.

ayah membantu aku mengangkat barang2 itu ke rumah.

ketika itu, tuhan sahaja yang tahu apa peraasaan daku, melihat org tua ku membantu aku mengangkat brg2 yg berat dr bwh sampai ke tingkat 4.

daku mendaftarkan diri sebagai pelajar asasi undang2 di KUTPM (now known as MSU)

asasi undang2 ini sepatutnya di habiskan dalam masa 1 tahun, tapi di sebabkan aku telah lalai, leka, terpedaya dgn budaya bebas di tempat org lain, aku lupa dgn tujuan asal ku.

aku lupa dgn harapan org tua ku.

akhirnya, pada semester 3 iaitu semester terakhir aku ketika asasi.

aku gagal 1 subjek, which means i have to repeat it again.

di sebabkan mengulang subjek yg aku gagal ini.

aku terkandas beberapa bulan sebelum aku dapat meneruskn ke peringkat degree.

pada ketika ini lah aku mengenali rakan2 aku,

shafiq fadzly, ramzul azim, mohd nor faiz, mohd shafiq, malai fahmi azfar.

the list goes on..

tp org2 ini lah yg byk mengukir pemikiran aku. pendirian aku tentang kehidupan.

terlalu byk utk aku hurai kebaikan kwn2 ini.

aku hanya mampu mengucapkan terima kasih.

all this year korg mmg housemate and kawan yg baik.

may Allah bless your future ahead.

2009

aku berjaya menghabiskan asasi undang2 aku, dan dgn ini aku pun meneruskn pelajaran aku ke peringkat seterusnya.

Bachelor in Law and Commerce.

akhirnya, ak bergelar sebagai seorg student degree.

and yes, definitely tanggungjwb aku semakin besar. aku tidak boleh lg mengulang kesilapan lama aku utk leka dlm pelajaran.

ketika ini lah aku di temukan dgn rakan2 kelas yg best.

yang pada mulanya aku agak tidak selesa, disebabkan ketika asasi.

kelas aku hanyalah seramai 20+ org..

suddenly mendaftar untuk degree, kelas aku adalah seramai 50+ people..

di sini, aku mula kenal pada vina dan fadie.

yeah, this two person.. argue a lot. i mean a lot.. specially fadie.

hehe.

doesn't matter, yg penting how many times we argued we still work together in achieving our dream, which is to finish our education together.

this two person really helps me a lot.

support me a lot.

i just don't know how to shows my gratitude to have a good friend like them.

tQ Allah.

tQ for surrounded my with a good friend like them.

May Allah bless your journey ahead guys, thanks for being a good friend all this time.

i really appreciate it.

2012

Akhirnya..

15.3.2012

aku berjaya menghabiskan exam degree terakhir aku.

tuhan sahaja yang tahu apa perasaan aku ketika ini, keluar dewan exam.

i really feels like.

"ya Allah, this journey. its not easy as it looks. and yet i manage to finish this to the end of the line."

akhirnya, setelah hampir 6 tahun bermastatautin di tempat org, belajar sekian lama.

aku berjaya untuk menghabiskannya dan insyaAllah kembali dgn membawa ijazah aku.

the 1st things that came out of my mind is that ayah, mak.

i will make u proud.

i wont let u down.

sekarang, aku akan memulakan praktikal aku selama 6 bulan yg akan bermula dari may hingga nov.

the difference now, is im not living at shah alam anymore.

im gonna do my internship at kota kinabalu sabah.

well, like my dad said to me.

" satu perjalanan yg sudah dilalui dan tak mungkin akan dilalui lagi..."

Thank you Allah.

Thank you mom and dad.

Thank you all my friends that have been supporting me all this years.

Thank you my beloved mai.

thank you everyone.

May Allah bless our journey ahead.

may the experience i've been through all this years make me a better person.

insyaAllah.

love before marriage?

Staring at the moon and the star, makes me pondering how beautiful this world our creator has made us. This beautiful night make's me wonder, what is love? is it true that, "the most beautiful thing in the world can't be seen or touch. it must be felt with the heart." Why heart?

When I look back, my previous experience. It's make me cautious with my current path that I've been through. I mean, In many terms, family, friends, and love. Love before marriage? When I was a kid, my mom and dad always warn me not play around with girls. I mean, like most of parents they will say " jgn bcinta2.. habis belajar dlu, habis sekolah dulu baru fikir cari perempuan." I hear this words, since my high school. I wonder, why? during that time, I'm looking for the answer, why can't love somebody we like, when she felt the same way too? yet, it's come from the heart. can we control our feeling? All of this question left behind with a no specific answer. So, my life goes on as any other kids and I start to fall in love, and start to care about someone else, a so-called "cinta monyet".

I have a countless ex during my teenager's life and yet, there's nothing to be proud of that. I'm not proud of it, not even a bit. With all of the experience I've been through, I wonder why is it really hard to love and to be love? Why love is not easy as it seems as we seen on the movies or novel. Is holding hand, hugs, kissing, and etc is what love really means? I was one of the victim within a billion in this world that believe all of that are the key element to understand what love is. I mean, holding hand, hugs. who doesn't want all those kind of things? I mean, when we love someone. For sure we will all those kind of things towards our love one right. It's a natural feeling, It's how we are functioning, It's a bless from Allah to give us those kind of feeling, comfort, love, care, and etc. And yet, why when we doing all this forbidden things before marriage it's not making us feel any happier? why we would feel the other way?

“…and do not come near Zina; indeed, it is an abomination and an evil way” (Al-Isra’: 32)

the answer is within this phrase of Quran. Indeed, the words of Allah are the best guidance to all the human being. I mean, it's natural to a human being to feel guilty when they are doing something which is forbidden by Allah. This is also the sign of the last age, as we refer to this hadis.

”Dan tinggallah manusia-manusia yang buruk, yang seenaknya melakukan persetubuhan seperti himar (keldai). Maka pada zaman mereka inilah kiamat akan datang.” – Sahih Muslim

Are we ready for the last day? are we ready to face Allah in his judgement day?

This year, I'm already 23 years old and insyaAllah, I'm finishing my bachelor in law and commerce by the end of this year. When people ask me, what will you do next?

My answer is plain and clear. " simpan duit, kawin." When some of my friend laughing or question my intention to be married early, I just smile and I ask, why would you have a so called GF when u are not intended to marry her? If u really love her, marry her, protect her dignity. Don't just say u love her, and give so many excuse when it comes to responsibility. Believe that Allah is the one that given sustenance to us. Work hard, and always keep a good faith in what u do. InsyaAllah, Allah is merciful and loving. He know's best for us.

As to answer, the question about love before marriage. I just can say, it depends on the interpretation of the person in what love really means to him/her. When u think love is about all those physical things, believe me. It wont last. But if u believe that love is more than that, beyond all those things, believe me. Follow what Allah has ordain us to follow. Love come from him, and we have to always remember that never ever love a person, more than we love him.

If your fathers, your sons, your brothers, your wives, your kindred, the wealth that you have gained, the commerce in which you fear a decline, and the dwellings in which you delight ... are dearer to you than Allah and His Messenger, and striving hard and fighting in His Cause , then wait until Allah brings about His Decision (torment). And Allah guides not the people who are Al-Fasiqun (the rebellious, disobedient to Allah). (Surah At-tawbah 24)

This means, have to be grateful in what Allah have given to us. How can we not love him when we know that all we have is a bless from him. That is why, we need to realize what is love, how to love, and what is the sources of love before we ought to know what love really is.

I hope she's the one that been meant to be for me. Ya Allah, jagalah hati kami, lindungi hati ini dari perkara2 yg engkau murkai. sekiranya dia jodohku, permudahkn perjalanan ini dan satukan hati kami dalam keberkatan mu. sesungguhnya, engkau tahu apa yg terbaik utk hamba2 mu. tQ Allah. tQ for always been there in all my journey in this life.

The road ahead may be full with obstacle, no matter how hard it is..

i really hope i can get through all of it with u.

may u be the one for me, and i'm the one for u.

insyaAllah..

together we hope Allah bless u and me.

hopefully, jodoh kita ada.

amin :)

"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies."

-Aristotle-

2012

Alhamdulillah.. kita sudah melangkah ke tahun yg baru.

skrg nie aku jarang update blog, bukan sebab aku abaikan blog nie.

cuma aku x tahu, apa yg aku perlu update. hehe..

actually, lots of stories i wanna share cuma idea xda utk tulis..

Well, its 2012.

ohoo.. prediction says its gonna be the end of the world at this year.

its it true?

well,

islam explain to us that the actual date and time regarding to the end of day is in the knowledge of Allah alone. Only he, knows when will this world end.

Simple kan?

tapi ramai juga yg post d fb, ramalan2 hari kiamat.. 21 hb 12 tue hari jumaat la. bulan puasa la.. bla bla bla..

Wey.. jangan cakap pasal kiamat besar la. cerita pasal kiamat kecil, kita nie manusia. anytime boley mati. daripada sibuk fikir pasal bila hari kiamat.. baik fikir pasal amalan kita. kalo esok kita mati, kalo hari nie hari terakhir kita utk hidup dan Allah tarik nyawa kita.

adakah kita sudah bersedia?

Anyway, tahun nie.. adalah tahun terakhir aku bergelar student. InsyaAllah i will get my degree this year :)

may Allah bless my journey..

lepas nie, kerja sudey..

kerja.. kena la kumpul duit. mo kawin..

ohoo.. selama nie dgr org cakap mcm tue, rasa mcm jauh lg turn aku. rupanya skrg nie turn ak pula da utk fikir semua tue..

yep. mest lah fikir kan. i want a bless relationship and yes. the only way to be bless is to be married. insyaAllah. hopefully ada jodoh dan ada rezeki dgn kekasih hati :)

there's a lot of obstacle in my journey ahead, hopefully Allah will increase my faith and may Allah guide me always in his right path. insyaAllah :)

never give up!

always have faith in our lord..

true love..

”Aku mengabdi kepada Allah bukan kerana takut kepada neraka, bukan pula ingin masuk syurga.. tetapi aku mengabdikan diri kerana cintaku dan rinduku padaNya. Tuhanku jika kupuja Engkau kerana takutkan neraka bakarlah aku di dalamnya. jika kupuja Engkau kerana mengharapkan syurga jauhkanlah aku daripadanya, tetapi jika Engkau ku puja semata-mata kerana Engkau maka janganlah sembunyikan kecantikanMu yang kekal dariku.”

Rabia'tul Adawiyah.

dear parents..

Mom n Dad..

thank's for always be there for me through thick and thin.

may Allah bless both of u always.

.i love u.

its all about your heart..

I dont mind your odd behavior

Its the very thing I love

If you were an ice cream flavor

You would be my favorite one

My imagination sees you

Like a painting by Van Gogh

Starry nights and bright sunflowers

follow you where you may go

Oh,I´ve loved you from the start

In every single way

And more each passing day

You are brighter than the stars

Believe me when I say

Its not about your scars

Its all about your heart

You´re a butterfly held captive

Small and safe in your cocoon

Go on you can take your time

Time is said to heal all wounds

Oh,I´ve loved you from the start

In every single way

And more each passing day

You are brighter than the stars

Believe me when I say

Its not about your scars

Its all about your heart

Like a lock without a key

Like a mystery without a clue

There is no me if I cannot have you

Oh,I´ve loved you from the start

In every single way

And more each passing day

You are brighter than the stars

Believe me when I say

Its not about your scars

Its all about your heart

- It's all about your heart, Mindy Gledhill.

i'm really touch by this song.. thx for dedicating me this song..

thx for accepting me for who i am..

u make me feel better each day. i can't promise that i'll be there for u always. but i know that i'll try my best to keep u safe in my heart..

ilysm :)

tentang dia

its been a long journey..

only Allah knows, what I've been through all along until i meet her..

this post i write, to express what i really experience along the way..

cerita pasal cinta nie.. mest ramai org fikir pasal holding hands, sweet2, romantic2 bagai, thats so called typical korea love story right..

Alhamdulillah its not me.

what i wanna say here is my love towards her is more than just physical interaction.

i always keep deep in my heart, that i wanna protect her, care about her, love her.. more than she could ever imagine.

apa yg aku rasa nie, aku sudah simpan dalam hati masa aku masih single lg. i mean, i've promise to myself that one day if i had to love again and if its love before marriage. im not gonna repeat the same mistake that ive ever did before.

my point is.. bila sudah cinta nie. tidak lah semestinya jumpa hari2. tidak semestinya perlu holding hands. tidak semestinya perlu kiss2 pipi or all sort of things..

if that is how we want to show our love before married.

i can say that it is not love.

it is more to " i lust u"

Alhamdulillah.. we have been together for a moment.

and she once tell me, it would be wonderful to love after married.

apa aku jawab?

ya. mmg betul. sgt indah.. sbb tiada lagi restriction, tiada lagi mo hati2, tiada lagi mo risau apa2..

there's no boundaries anymore :)

aku cuma boley bgtau dia, buat masa nie dgn keadaan kita yg masih mcm nie. cukuplah sekadar kita jaga hati kita masing2..

mungkin ini adalah ujian utk kita, melihat sekuat mana kita bersandarkn cinta pada ilahi ataupun bersandarkn cinta itu pada nafsu..

jika cinta ini bersandarkn pada nafsu semata2, cinta yg melebihi ingatnya kita pada Allah. percayalah, cinta ini tidak akan sampai ke mana. tetapi jika cinta ini d sandarkan pada tujuan yg benar, mengharapkn keredhaan ilahi. insyaAllah pasti cinta ini akan bawa kita lebih dkt padanya :)

that's why..

aku ingatkan padanya, jgn rasa ujian ini suatu kekurangan utk kita.

aku mahu dia tahu, yg cinta ini sesukar mana pun.. jika tahu, one day di restui dgn keberkatan ilahi. d ikat dgn ikatan perkahwinan. pasti akan membahagiakn. pasti kita akan lebih menghargai kepayahan yg kita lalui pada saat ini.

naluri utk syg menyanyang itu adalah lumrah kita sebagai manusia, tapi kita mestilah menjaga perasaan syg itu dr d cemari oleh nafsu semata2.

cinta yg di bertuhankan nafsu sudah pasti akan membawa kepada kebinasaan..

anyway, there's a lot of things that make's me attracted to her.

tp, benda yg paling aku suka pada dia..

adalah agamanya :)

every time i talk to her, mesti relate dgn keagungan tuhan.

how can i not fall in love to her, kalo benda yg dia suka adalah benda yg sama aku suka?

aku selalu berdoa moga2 di temukan dgn wanita yg mahu mendekatkan diri dgn Allah, at the same time will make me getting close to Allah as well.

and when im with her, rasa berharap aku pada Allah itu lebih menggunung lg.

i mean, bukan lah sebab aku x sabar mahu kawin dgn dia tapi rasa mahu Allah tolong jaga hati dia.

rasa mahu Allah redhai hubungan ini.

rasa mahu Allah senangkn perjalanan kami berdua.

itu semua adalah rasa lemahnya diri aku, yg membuatkn aku lebih mengharap pada tuhan..

at last i know how it feel to be patience and to control myself. restraining myself from her.

jika ini ujian mu padaku ya Allah, aku redha hadapinya. jika dialah jodohku tiada yg lebih indah selain dari engkau berkati dan permudahkan lah perjalanan kami.

only Allah know best.

tQ Allah :)

A thousand years by Christina Perri

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/c/christina_perri/a_thousand_years.html ]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Korea

Hari raya Haji jatuh pada hari lahir aku.. alhamdulillah. sambut birthday and hari raya haji di korea :)

yep. will be on korea on 4 until 6 nov 2011.

will post out some nice pix soon :)

oh wanita..

Posting hari ini, adalah berkaitan dgn kategori wanita :)

Need to be remind here, ini adalah kajian aku sendiri berdasarkn opinion rakan2 dan experience aku sndiri.. so, accept for u, to accept or reject the info..

ada 3 kategori wanita di mata lelaki..

Hot.

Comel.

Cantik.

Hot

okei.. biasa dgr nie? mesti lah biasa dgr kan.. nie 1st kategori yg selalu jadi pujaan ramai lelaki.

kena faham d sni, hot nie tidak sama definasinya dr seorg lelaki dgn lelaki yg lain.

ada yg rasa, awek rambut panjang hot..

ada yg rasa, awek rambut pendek hot..

ada yg rasa, awek rambut curly hot..

and the list goes on..

hot tidak tertakluk dgn rupa sahaja, it also include fizikal and appearance of the lady.

i mean.. kalo gurl yg dress up sexy ( muka ala barbie doll + pakai tight jeans and shirt )

thats hot =.="

ya.. i use to hear that a lot.

bila d tgk dari explanation nie, selalu org fikir nie lah wanita idaman lelaki rite?

yep. mmg nie lah wanita idaman lelaki..

tp, jarang lah yg aku jumpa lelaki mo serius relationship dgn dorg..

( kpd wanita2 hot, dun mad at me. like i said, this is based upon my exp and research )

bukan lah semua wanita hot xda lelaki mo serious dgn dorg tp rare.. kebanyakan yg aku jumpa, selalu mo take advantage ja atas ppuan tue, i mean the jerk ex bf will said " hey, that gurls? she was mine before"

so, dgn bangga nya lelaki nie mendabik dada bole cakap dia ada awek hot.. still xmo pon kawin dgn ppuan tue. why? sbb dia rasa ppuan mcm ni x bole di buat bini, buat gurau senda ok la.. untuk jaga dia masa dia tua, untuk jadi priority dia. tidak sesuai..

so, gurls yg kurang 'hot' jgn la rasa kamu kurang dr gadis2 'hot' okei..

Comel

wahhh!! comelnya!

hehe. nie ayat yg akan keluar dr mulut guys bila dia nmpk gurls yg sgt comel

and yes, definasi comel utk guys adalah berbeza.. yalah, taste masing2 manalh sama kn..

anyway, typical comel yg ak selalu dgr bila awek tue ada

this criteria :

personality yg peramah.

suara mcm ala2 kitten gtu.

manja.

mata, mcm ala2 kucing shrek.

kecik saiz orgnya.

the list goes on. anyway, thats the normal standard lelaki akan letak gurls cute tue mcm mana.

so, gadis2 comel nie selalunya akan jd idaman ramai jg. seriously, compare gadis hot dgn gadis comel. gadis comel nie lg ramai org approach..

i mean, lelaki lg comfortable and yakin dgn perempuan type comel nie compare dgn yg hot. sbb?

sbb lelaki selalunya tidak yakin utk mendapatkn awek hot. mostly, rendah diri.. ( rasa dia x layak utk hot gurls, hot gurls x pandang la, hot gurls mahu bf hot la )

sbb tu dorg rasa, dorg ada chance bila mengurat awek2 comel.

anyway, that's why in reality guys akan cenderung pegi gurls2 yg comel nie.

reality not include FB k.

kalo setakat mengurat d FB, semua lelaki pon bole mengurat awek hot =.="

Cantik

ok.. selalunya ni gurls yg dress up simple2 pun still org cakap cantik.

cantik nie actually susah utk di explain, i mean ini lah part yg d mana betul2 taste setiap org determine cantik tue mcm mana.

ada yg rasa awek muka ala2 chinese tu cantik, ada yg rasa awek ala2 arab tue cantik, ada yg rasa awek ala2 euro version tu cantik.. oh my, the list goes on.

anyway, what important is.. kalo guys da rasa perempuan tue cantik, most of them akan serious and mahu comitted dgn wanita2 "cantik" mereka nie..

what important is, everyone has their own defination of cantik. so, gurls di luar sana yg risau dorg x cukup cantik or whatsoever.. don't be okei.

xda yg perlu di risaukn. there's a guy out there waiting for u, talking about how beautiful u are to him :)

so, kalau ada guys yg cakap u are pretty eventhough u think u are not. ingatlah, lelaki tue mest ada crush2 sket dgn anda =P

( ok, that's one trick to understand either the guy mahu mengurat anda atau x )

Anyway, which one are u?

the hot one?

the Comel one?

or the Cantik one?

whatever category u fall into, just remember.. be urself, and always appreciate urself for who u are :)

jgn lah berubah untuk jadi yg cantik untuk lelaki idaman anda, sbb bila dia jumpa yg lebih cantik.. dia akan pergi meninggalkn anda..

berubah lah untuk mencari keredhaan Allah, mencari cinta hakiki yg di mana dia pasti akan pertemukan kita dgn pasangan yg akan menghargai kita, melihat kecantikan kita bukan dr sudut nafsu syahwat semata2, tp dari sudut akal dan hatinya :)

which one u prefer to choose? love for the sake of Allah.. or love for the sake of ur lust?

i leave the answer for u to answer..

Everyday is a new day, and it's a present.

don't waste every moment thinking about something we can't change, appreciate urself, be grateful, insyaAllah.. u will find there's a lot of beautiful things in urself that u just never realize :)

Finally, after 22 month..

i finally feel loving a person again :)

yes. we will commit to each other.

enough for me to know u will wait for me, as i will wait for u..

by Allah wills. i hope, this time it's gonna work.

i hv faith in Allah and u.

Allah know's what best for us :)