karma

Hari ni.. aku mahu menulis tentang karma..
Karma.
apa yg kita mengerti tentang karma?
kita tahu, karma adalah semua balasan yang kita dapat hasil dari perlakuan kita.
bila kita fikir tentang karma. apa yg kita ingat?
most of people akan cakap pasal karma bila mereka di kecewakan, tidak kira dari sudut apa pun. cinta.. kerja.. keluarga.. dan mcm2 lg..

hurm.. bila kita kecewa. kita selalu fikir. kita yg betul..
kita yg di aniaya.
kita yg dikhianati.
tapi...
pernah kah kita tanya diri kita sendiri.
kenapa setiap perkara tue terjadi?
pernahkan kita mohon maaf dgn kesilapan kita?
pernahkah kita memaafkan kesilapan org lain?
perlu kah kita menyimpan dendam dgn org lain?

adakah islam mengajar kita untuk berdendam
atau hidup dalam kedamaian?

Like i said, life is full of wonder..
but people tend to see life in miserable way..
im not saying i've a great life or etc..
i jz want we ppl to remember..
our deeds determine of who we really are and what we will become..
kalau kita fikir kehidupan ni satu perkara yg menyakitkn.
kehidupan ni satu perkara yg susah.
satu perkara yg negative.
then the outcome will be exactly like u think.
u don't trust me. then go forward.. think negative of everything that happen around u.
we'll see what u'll become in the next 10 years..

aku..
yes, kalo di lihat dari sudut life aku..
aku sgt takut dgn karma.
aku takut dgn balasan tuhan terhadap kesilapan aku.
Bagi aku tiada benda yg lg menyedihkn selain daripada hilang rahmat dan hidayahnya..
aku sedih, bila memikirkn apa yg akan jadi dgn aku.
sedih bila memikirkan kesilapan2 yg pernah aku lalui.
aku takut kalau kesilapan aku di kala muda ini.
memberi impak kepada kehidupan ku di kemudian hari.
memberi kesan kepada family aku.
memberi kesan kepada anak2 aku.
maybe it sounds odd.. sounds like " hey, still early la to think about all of this.. "
tapi aku x mahu tergolong dalam golongan yg tidak sempat mensyukuri nikmat Allah.
tidak percaya dgn balasan yg dia akan berikan.
adakah kita akan muda selamanya?
pastinya tidak.

aku percaya.. apa yg kita lakukan skrg. adalah imej kita pada masa depan.
kalau masa muda nie.
kita sukar untuk beribadat. sukar untuk menunaikan kewajipan kita sebagai islam.
adakah pada masa tua. kita akan mampu?
pasti boleh dgn adanya rahmat dan hidayah Allah.
tapi.. cuba fikir sejenak.
kalo kita tidak sempat mencapai umur yg senja?
kita sedia tahu. ajal itu akan tiba pada bila2 masa.
jika kita tidak sempat untuk beribadat? memohon keampunan Allah?

Hari nie, aku pergi solat terawih.
d surau tue..
aku lihat seorg tua umur dalam 60-70 tahun.
menunaikan ibadah, solat isyak dan terawih..
syukurlah. mc mampu dan bertenaga.

aku tfikir sejenak.

aku?
adakah aku.. jika umurku panjang.
aku akan menjadi seperti org tua ini?
adakah aku akan menghabiskan sisa hidupku beribadat kepada tuhan?
ataupun aku akan hanyut dan larut dalam mainan dunia..
ada org yg sudah berumur senja.. masih hidup dalam keseronokan dan kelalaian.

ya Allah..
aku mohon padamu.
jgnlah engkau lalaikn aku dgn nikmat dunia ini.
aku hanyalah hamba mu yg lemah.
yg mengharapkn belas kesihan dari mu.
kuatkanlah hati ku dalam beramal kepada mu.
jgn lah engkau duga aku dgn dugaan yg tidak mampu aku lalui.

tQ my lord..
for giving me all this thoughts.
tQ for showing me the light when im falling deep into the dark..
tQ for this beautiful life u've given to me.
i promise i'll try to be a better muslim..
i love u with all my heart..

without u.. i am nothing :(

rambut =D

Yeah.. ni la aku.
masa aku botak awal tahun nie.
hahaha..

so, baru2 nie aku bajet2 mo botak lagi..
tapi, aku tanya la girls friend aku..
and most of them cakap.
jgn la z..
x nsem =.="

adeih.. frust aku..
so, masa aku botak dlu x nsem la tue kan T.T

hurm.. so, aku pon x jadi la botakkan kepala aku..
gunting spikey2 ja..
mcm aku slalu buat. hihi.

So, ni lah hasilnya..
rambut aku baru gunting..
pic ni da lama amik.
dlm bulan lepas if im not mistaken..

so, aku buat la pic nie jd profile pic.
wahh.. org cakap aku makin kurus!
hahahah..
oh yeah. i like!
ramai la girls suka aku nie pasnie =p
hahaha..

sbnarnya aku x kesah pon aku gemuk ka kurus ka..
im jz happy the way i am..

gumuk pun siok..
kurus pun siok..
mana2 ja lah..

hurm.. selain dari cerita rambut..
janggut. adeh.. so, baru2 nie..
aku gunting janggut aku..
where u almost cant see it.
huhu..
mcm da shave la lebih kurang..

alih2.. kena condemned jg.
x nsem!
x smart..

walao... apa la yg ngam sama aku nie?
T__T

xpalah..
nt lah. ada gf.. aku tanya gf aku ja.
xmo suda tanya girls2 frend aku..
hahaha =p

jz kidding guys..
u all are the best in my life =D

Hurm anyway. today..
i've receive msg.. from hurm idk.
1 of my admire? friends?

ntah la mo classified apa..

sblm nie.. bukan maen lg cakap sayang aku la.
imy la..
ily la..
huhh..

skalinya..
drama ja, bole2 lak tsalah send sms..
kantoi ada bf di situ~
hahaha.. ( aku bgn tdo. baca msg dia.. tdo blk) hahaha. x rasa pa2 pon..
wei.. da ada bf tue. buat la cara ada bf..
xyah sebuk2 mo cari org laen..

x kesah la weh.. ko drama ka apa ka..
i dont care.

simple ja la jawapan aku tuk ko..
watever~
bukan aku suka ko pun. bukan aku yg confess apa2..
aku x kesah pun.. ko ada ka teda ka..
sama ja. hahaha..

maru!

Cutenya T.T
rindu miaw2 d rumah..

seriously.. i love this cat!
hahaha..
nt aku da keja aku ada umah sndiri.
aku mo bela sekor kucing mcm nie.
x kira la brapa pun harga dia.
aku mo beli jg!
huhu..
I love maru!
pnya la cute..
bole ilank suma problem aku tgk kerenah2 dia :)

the tears ~

Tears..

All of us have cried..
There's many reason why people cried..
But most people cried because of love..

Love?
is it worth our tears to cry for someone?
is it mean anything for him/her?
will those tears change anything?
Have we really cried for something more than that?
More then just a love towards a person..
is that really called LOVE, which make us feel suffer and emptiness?
or it just memory, which you can't even let go..
a tears which we wasted for something we should not be sad of..

Today..
I cried. i cried as i watch the suffering of this kids..
Like usual, i search a new video to improve my knowledge about Islam and the reality of world we live today..
Then i found this video, which is named PREDESTINATION ( you can find it at youtube )
There are many episode within this topic.
Than, i saw a video which they display this picture of children in the Palestine.
This is the first time i watch a video and tears suddenly role down in my face.
I just cant watch it.
I feel really useless.
I feel really Helpless.
I think, why i never cared about all of this?
Why I never think about all of this?

I read the newspapers and watch the news regarding to all of this.
I never take serious of it.
But now, as i go through the video.
When the maker of the video remind me, as a Muslim. we all are siblings..
We all are related to each other.
If they feel the pain, we should feel the pain too..
but the question pop up in my head. have i?
Have i really cared about what my brothers there going through?
Ya Allah..
I will always prayed for them.
If that is the least thing that I could do.
May the light of Islam will shine to this entire world once again.

I believe..
One day, they will come the time for us to live in harmony and peacefully on this earth.
I do pray, we as a Muslim.
Realize and think about what we should do.
wake up brothers and sisters..
The simplest thing on our life maybe effect the entire human world.
We can make a change.
Dont wait for a miracle to change this society.
Change urself.

The perfect example of a Muslim is to LIVE Islam.
then by that, you'll find happiness within you :)

mustahil ~

sy pokai suda T.T


tahun dpn tahun last aku sda..
cpt la abes..
aku mo kerja..
kumpul duit..
cari bini..

kawin..
hoorayy..
hahahaha..
=P

sori2 la aku senang kawin.
( kalo jodoh da smpai laen cita la kan )
aku mo cantik. baek. setia. dgr cakap. pandai jaga aku. pandai jaga hati parents aku. solat x tinggal.. owh sweet~~~~~
Heavenly earth suda aku kalo mcm tue..

ada org cakap dgn aku. mustahil?
wei.. baek2 sket. kalo dgn aku. teda menda yg mustahil kayh.
once i want it. i'll find my way to get wat i want..
aku bukan cam org laen. berangan ja kuat..
aku pecaya apa tuhan cakap. kalo kamu berusaha, pasti kamu dapat..
kalo x dapat, ada la hikmah dia..

huhh~
cita laen la.. mcm cita aku mo kawen esok lak da.. haha..

anyway, aku mmg betul2 x sabar mo kerja..
mo ada keta sndiri..
mo ada duit sndiri..
mo ada rumah sndiri..
mo travel around d world..

owh.. moga tuhan izinkan aku dapat suma nie.
amin~~

Ramadhan

Ramadhan.
Have we ever fasting because we really want to..
or it just because what people do..

Terawih.. All people come from every corner to perform the Solat SUNAT Terawih.
But have we ever perform the Solat Fardhu?
The one that is compulsory to all the Muslim..

Think back..
Have we ever realize that ramadhan hv its own significance then just forbidden to eat and drink..

Do we ever Love Allah as much as Allah love us?

Ya Allah..
i prayed for u.. please, guide me to ur path.
Lead me to the righteous way.

Im sorry for all my sins through my entire life :(

For me, this Ramadhan is different than any other Ramadhan i've been through before.
Its not because of the ramadhan month.
Its because of me..
I never think and appreciated the moment that i should appreciated.

Thank u my lord, for giving me the chance to feel this light , which i cant explain it within words.

I'll try my best to be a better Muslim.
InsyaAllah :)

New beginning~

New layout
New story
New journey
New beginning

yep. This is my new layout.. simple blue with snowy. huhu. i like it. so natural.. with this new layout, i wanna mark it as a new beginning for my story. new journey for my life. no more sad story. no more regret.

Life is full of wonder..
why should i regret and think back of what i've lost along this way..
there must be a reason why they cant make it here to be with me until today..

You can't change what has happen around you..
what you do have, is the opportunity to change the outcome for what may become in the future.
meaning to say, what you do today.. is what u become in the future.

From now on, i'll try my best to think positive from time to time..
i know its not an easy task, but i believe in myself :)

Anger..
throw it all away..

Disappointed..
Don't blame the people who disappointed you..

hatred..
try to avoid it, cuz.. once u hate a person. its not him/her feel the pain. u r actually hurting urself..

Love..
Im going to be here always for u.. U can count on me. im not going to disappoint u. i wanna paint a big smile at ur heart. the important thing is.. im going to Love u :)
this is for my future gf ( eventhough skrg aku teda sepa2 pon )
huhu..

Life..
i'll try my best to be a better person :)