selamat selamat..

there's a time when u want to write something but u can't.. it's not because u don't know how to write. it's because u just can't explain what u really on your mind.

Yeah. that's me now.

that's why i haven't update my blog for a long time.

anyway,
selamat hari raya aidifitri.. i know, maybe aku la org plg lambat wish hari raya di kalangan bloggers. tapi mo wish juga :)
selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin..
dan selamat hari Malaysia :)

so, what to say today?
okei..
1st of all, i need a perfect getaway.. yeah. a perfect, means i need a vacation to free my mind from all the trash, all the things that demotivated me this several month..

and yeah, lucky me. this 4 nov im going to korea for a holiday with family :)
its a perfect getaway maybe? yeah. i hope it will be..
lagipun.. inilah cuti terakhir aku sebelum aku masuk alam pekerjaan.
bulan 3 nie aku da habis, lepas tue praktikal. habis praktikal.. kerja..
bila lagi aku ada masa bercuti?
yeah. xda..
da kerja nt, mo apply cuti pun susah..

anyway, i realize that.. lagi meningkat umur nie, lg besar tanggungjwb.. ( owh so lame, skrg baru sedar )

ya.. sebab, sblm nie cakap ja. tidak sama bila melaluinya sendiri.. i mean, mom already ask whether i have a gf or not and so and so..
haiysh..
it's not that i hate that kind of question, but how am i gonna answer it?
i know.. she cares too much, well.. dia risau kalau aku masih ingat ex aku, and sbb tue aku single smpai skrg.

mom..
believe me. i'm fine :)
this has nothing to do with my previous experience. it's just i don't meet the right person yet.
xkan la mo kelam kabut ada gf rite.. nt x kemana susah jg..
yalah, bukan budak2 lagi.. im an adult already, mest la mo cari gf yg bole betul2 jd komitmen..
kalo boleh, i don't want a gf.. but, nowadays mcm mana mo deter perangai dia kalo x kenal as gf?
i don't know lah..

bukan senang mo cari perempuan ajak kawin terus kn.
mau dia cakap aku nie pelik nt..
well, tue lah budaya d malaysia. what to do ~~

nvm that, the important thing is i believe that this life is a wonderful journey..
i'm not gonna feel sympathy to myself just because i don't have someone beside me.
well, Allah always there for me :)

i have faith within u Allah.
if i've already meet the right person, please make it easy for me to realize..
and make it easy for me and her to go through..
amin..

anyway, right now..
focus on my priority..
live for the sake of Allah.
live to comfort my mom and dad.
achieve all my ambition.
and, i believe love will always coming along the way.
never lose hope. always remember Allah know's best..

staring at the ceiling and remembering the old days.. No matter how hard life is, Life must go on. Don't give up. always have faith ;)

superman

There are no words, to paint a picture of you girl
Your eyes, those curls, it's like you're from some other world
You walk my way, oh God it's so frustrating.

So why do I disappear when you come near,
It makes me feel so small,
Why do I blow my lines, most every time,
Like I got no chance at all,

If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'cause everytime you touch my hand,
I can feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
'Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am, oh yeah,

It ain't no lie, I have to tell you how I feel,
Each time, that I try it gets a little more unreal,
You say my name, oh God I can't stop shaking.

So why do I disappear when you come near,
It makes me feel so small,
If I could read your mind,
Girl would I find, any trace of me at all.

If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'cause everytime you touch my hand,
I can feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,

And tell you that I'm not that strong.
Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am - ladadadi, woahhhh, woahhh, yeah, babadadadiii- ,woahhh, yeah

If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'Cause everytime you touched my hand,
I can feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
'cause I'm no supermaaaan,
I hope you like me as I am.

ok.. I love this song by Joe brooks.

and if i knew how to love again, sure im gonna sing this to my girl ;)

final year

Oh yeah. btw, its my final year..

and guess what? im scared ok. haha..

when people are excited about finishing their student life, im scared about entering the works life..

Oh my..

i have to reschedule my Gym time, my diet, my environment, my friends, my life..

Oh life..

may the journey ahead will be full with wonders..

amin..

whatever happen next, i know that..

my responsibilities are getting heavier..

finish study, entering works life..

means, i need to think about married..

Oh My..

gf pon xda..

mo fikir kawin =.="

why

i ask my sis..

why its so difficult for me to fall in love to someone?

she said..

" fobia "

owh.. what a simple answer. yet a deep meaning.

yes, i have meet many gurls.

yet, i still can't think about having a serious relationship.

gf?

idk..

maybe, i've spent so many years already loving someone..

thats y right now, im enjoying my single life..

im not typical person, which when they are single..

they hate the idea of having a gf, love, or anything..

a words like " single is simple, couple is trouble"

im not really into that..

cuz i know, the reality is by the end of the day..

i also need to love, and beloved..

im human. and i can't avoid that feeling..

so, what am i into?

am i really so called " fobia " like my sis told me?

idk.. whatever it is..

i just can't trust anyone else, other than the person i see in the mirror.

thats too bad i guess..

well, its better to be single then Sorry right..

i hate the feeling to be frustrated again..

i hate the feeling to lose again..

anyway, whatever happens.

i hope, that i always remain calm and believe that Allah knows what best..

i don't ever want to blame anything that ever happen in my life..

cuz i know, what i do like maybe is not good for me..

but what i do hate maybe is good for me..

i always have faith in u my Lord..

i know, the road ahead of me are full with obstacle..

i hope, u always guide me to the right path..

don't let me astray, as when u already guide me to your path..

anyway,

its just a matter of time..

maybe, 1 day im gonna deactivate my FB, my Twitter, my Blog..

cuz sometimes, all this kind of things making me confuse of what is right and what is wrong. what is good, and what is bad for me..

why?

i wanna live in reality..

sorry..

im just an ordinary, with a simple hope..

im sorry..

i just don't know what to say..

im just..

i don't know, i don't know why i can't love anyone..

i mean, i can't think about thinking about serious relationship o anything..

doesn't mean that im playing around with u.

its not what i mean..

it's just..

u jz too good for me, meanwhile..

im just a man who's still searching for the true meaning of love..

the true meaning of faith within myself..

it's not that i gv up..

it's not that i don't wanna try..

it's im hopeless when come to this kind of things..

being single for all this while really effect my point of view towards relationship..

i don't know..

maybe im wrong, maybe..

im just making excuse..

maybe, deep inside..

i still have not believe in human " so called love "

sorry..

tc my dear.

always have faith in Allah, everything happen for a reason and he knows best..

genap 1 tahun..

i've already beat the odds.

well, u can see that how fat i am before rite?

who says u can't achieve what u dream for?

today is 1st day of puasa, and it means it's already a year i've been diet and working up to hv my dream body..

if u want to be somebody, don't think about tomorrow..

there is no tomorrow, think about what u really want today..

be positive, always positive, and forever positive..

never gv up..

lead that life..

insyaAllah, u'll achieve what u dream of..

anyway, selamat berpuasa to all my fellow brothers and sisters..

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