A thousand years by Christina Perri

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/c/christina_perri/a_thousand_years.html ]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Korea

Hari raya Haji jatuh pada hari lahir aku.. alhamdulillah. sambut birthday and hari raya haji di korea :)

yep. will be on korea on 4 until 6 nov 2011.

will post out some nice pix soon :)

oh wanita..

Posting hari ini, adalah berkaitan dgn kategori wanita :)

Need to be remind here, ini adalah kajian aku sendiri berdasarkn opinion rakan2 dan experience aku sndiri.. so, accept for u, to accept or reject the info..

ada 3 kategori wanita di mata lelaki..

Hot.

Comel.

Cantik.

Hot

okei.. biasa dgr nie? mesti lah biasa dgr kan.. nie 1st kategori yg selalu jadi pujaan ramai lelaki.

kena faham d sni, hot nie tidak sama definasinya dr seorg lelaki dgn lelaki yg lain.

ada yg rasa, awek rambut panjang hot..

ada yg rasa, awek rambut pendek hot..

ada yg rasa, awek rambut curly hot..

and the list goes on..

hot tidak tertakluk dgn rupa sahaja, it also include fizikal and appearance of the lady.

i mean.. kalo gurl yg dress up sexy ( muka ala barbie doll + pakai tight jeans and shirt )

thats hot =.="

ya.. i use to hear that a lot.

bila d tgk dari explanation nie, selalu org fikir nie lah wanita idaman lelaki rite?

yep. mmg nie lah wanita idaman lelaki..

tp, jarang lah yg aku jumpa lelaki mo serius relationship dgn dorg..

( kpd wanita2 hot, dun mad at me. like i said, this is based upon my exp and research )

bukan lah semua wanita hot xda lelaki mo serious dgn dorg tp rare.. kebanyakan yg aku jumpa, selalu mo take advantage ja atas ppuan tue, i mean the jerk ex bf will said " hey, that gurls? she was mine before"

so, dgn bangga nya lelaki nie mendabik dada bole cakap dia ada awek hot.. still xmo pon kawin dgn ppuan tue. why? sbb dia rasa ppuan mcm ni x bole di buat bini, buat gurau senda ok la.. untuk jaga dia masa dia tua, untuk jadi priority dia. tidak sesuai..

so, gurls yg kurang 'hot' jgn la rasa kamu kurang dr gadis2 'hot' okei..

Comel

wahhh!! comelnya!

hehe. nie ayat yg akan keluar dr mulut guys bila dia nmpk gurls yg sgt comel

and yes, definasi comel utk guys adalah berbeza.. yalah, taste masing2 manalh sama kn..

anyway, typical comel yg ak selalu dgr bila awek tue ada

this criteria :

personality yg peramah.

suara mcm ala2 kitten gtu.

manja.

mata, mcm ala2 kucing shrek.

kecik saiz orgnya.

the list goes on. anyway, thats the normal standard lelaki akan letak gurls cute tue mcm mana.

so, gadis2 comel nie selalunya akan jd idaman ramai jg. seriously, compare gadis hot dgn gadis comel. gadis comel nie lg ramai org approach..

i mean, lelaki lg comfortable and yakin dgn perempuan type comel nie compare dgn yg hot. sbb?

sbb lelaki selalunya tidak yakin utk mendapatkn awek hot. mostly, rendah diri.. ( rasa dia x layak utk hot gurls, hot gurls x pandang la, hot gurls mahu bf hot la )

sbb tu dorg rasa, dorg ada chance bila mengurat awek2 comel.

anyway, that's why in reality guys akan cenderung pegi gurls2 yg comel nie.

reality not include FB k.

kalo setakat mengurat d FB, semua lelaki pon bole mengurat awek hot =.="

Cantik

ok.. selalunya ni gurls yg dress up simple2 pun still org cakap cantik.

cantik nie actually susah utk di explain, i mean ini lah part yg d mana betul2 taste setiap org determine cantik tue mcm mana.

ada yg rasa awek muka ala2 chinese tu cantik, ada yg rasa awek ala2 arab tue cantik, ada yg rasa awek ala2 euro version tu cantik.. oh my, the list goes on.

anyway, what important is.. kalo guys da rasa perempuan tue cantik, most of them akan serious and mahu comitted dgn wanita2 "cantik" mereka nie..

what important is, everyone has their own defination of cantik. so, gurls di luar sana yg risau dorg x cukup cantik or whatsoever.. don't be okei.

xda yg perlu di risaukn. there's a guy out there waiting for u, talking about how beautiful u are to him :)

so, kalau ada guys yg cakap u are pretty eventhough u think u are not. ingatlah, lelaki tue mest ada crush2 sket dgn anda =P

( ok, that's one trick to understand either the guy mahu mengurat anda atau x )

Anyway, which one are u?

the hot one?

the Comel one?

or the Cantik one?

whatever category u fall into, just remember.. be urself, and always appreciate urself for who u are :)

jgn lah berubah untuk jadi yg cantik untuk lelaki idaman anda, sbb bila dia jumpa yg lebih cantik.. dia akan pergi meninggalkn anda..

berubah lah untuk mencari keredhaan Allah, mencari cinta hakiki yg di mana dia pasti akan pertemukan kita dgn pasangan yg akan menghargai kita, melihat kecantikan kita bukan dr sudut nafsu syahwat semata2, tp dari sudut akal dan hatinya :)

which one u prefer to choose? love for the sake of Allah.. or love for the sake of ur lust?

i leave the answer for u to answer..

Everyday is a new day, and it's a present.

don't waste every moment thinking about something we can't change, appreciate urself, be grateful, insyaAllah.. u will find there's a lot of beautiful things in urself that u just never realize :)

Finally, after 22 month..

i finally feel loving a person again :)

yes. we will commit to each other.

enough for me to know u will wait for me, as i will wait for u..

by Allah wills. i hope, this time it's gonna work.

i hv faith in Allah and u.

Allah know's what best for us :)

3.36 am

okei.. its 3.36 am in the morning. and im here stuck writing in my blog..
lately, aku byk berfikir tentang kehidupan..
tentang diri aku, tentang masa depan..

well.. kita x taw kan, bila ajal kita.
tp yg sudah pasti, selagi mana kita masih hidup perjuangan utk mencari keredhaan Ilahi itu mest di teruskn..

anyway, bila berfikir tentang kehidupan.. tentang future..
aku jadi kaku.
aku jadi kelu.

maybe,
aku terlalu byk berfikir. maybe, aku adalah seorang yg kritikal thinking..
tapi.. apa yg aku fikirkn adalah sesuatu yg selama ini menjadi persoalan pada diri aku..

di manakah hati aku?

ya. sounds odd.. when a person specially man saying, where's my heart?
im not saying that im being sad here..
bukan.
tapi, setelah sekian lama dan setelah pelbagai ragam manusia aku jumpa..
aku realize yg hati aku sudah lama kering =.="

it means that..
all this years, i've been protecting myself from loving another person..
i don't realize that until this moment..

di sini, bukan aku cakap tentang cinta manusia yg typical..
meaning to say cinta yg berlandaskn nafsu semata2. bukan.
aku mengatakn tentang perasaan syg, tentang cinta yg berlandaskn syariat..

persoalannya..
boleh kah syg seseorg dgn istilah couple?

ada pelbagai view related dgn jawapan kepada persoalan ini..
untuk aku.. aku sudah menjawab persoalan ini berkali2..
which is, i don't really agree with couple sort of thing stuff..

couple nie, kalo relate dgn perasaan utk secure. rasa utk syg menyayangi ni..
adalah satu perkara yg rumit utk di bincangkn..
maksud aku, is it really secure?
i mean, kalo sudah couple baru kita rasa kita bole bagi commitment dgn org kita syg tue?
bila suda ada status mcm tue, baru boleh fikir tentang future kita dgn org kita sayang tue?
well.. consider kalau partner kita tu, bukan milik kita..
what will u feel?
im not being negative here.. im just wanna say..
sometimes, org yg bercouple bagai pon belum tentu lg akan bersama..
bagi aku, status itu tidaklah penting..
why bother think about the status when u know what u feel?
perlu kah cinta tue di balas skrg?
i mean.. as a guy. perlukah mengharap cinta yg kau beri tu di balas oleh perempuan yg ko syg?

in my point of view..
status itu tidaklah menjadi keutamaan.
apa yg penting, adakah kita sygkn dia?
ckuplah kita berusaha utk buat yg terbaik utk org kita sayang..
jika usaha itu berbaloi dan mmg dia adalah jodoh kita..
kita tidak perlu bersedih :)
ingatlah.. syaitan itu sentiasa berusaha melalaikn kita..
jagalah hati kita dgn sentiasa berdoa pada Allah..

like my mom use to said..
"kalau kita syg dgn org, minta tuhan tetapkn hatinya pada kita.. jgn merayu pada org tue, merayu lah pada yg maha esa. sesungguhnya, hati manusia tue tuhan yg pegang.."

anyway, my lord.. i don't know.. what's future hold for me.
but i do know that im willing to wait for her..
if it's worth waiting for..
make it easy for me, let me be patience in overcome the obstacle that im gonna face ahead..
if this is a test for me. i have faith within u my lord..
don't let me astray..
only u know's best my lord, and i pray that make it easy for me to realize if its good for me..
insyaAllah..

selamat selamat..

there's a time when u want to write something but u can't.. it's not because u don't know how to write. it's because u just can't explain what u really on your mind.

Yeah. that's me now.

that's why i haven't update my blog for a long time.

anyway,
selamat hari raya aidifitri.. i know, maybe aku la org plg lambat wish hari raya di kalangan bloggers. tapi mo wish juga :)
selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin..
dan selamat hari Malaysia :)

so, what to say today?
okei..
1st of all, i need a perfect getaway.. yeah. a perfect, means i need a vacation to free my mind from all the trash, all the things that demotivated me this several month..

and yeah, lucky me. this 4 nov im going to korea for a holiday with family :)
its a perfect getaway maybe? yeah. i hope it will be..
lagipun.. inilah cuti terakhir aku sebelum aku masuk alam pekerjaan.
bulan 3 nie aku da habis, lepas tue praktikal. habis praktikal.. kerja..
bila lagi aku ada masa bercuti?
yeah. xda..
da kerja nt, mo apply cuti pun susah..

anyway, i realize that.. lagi meningkat umur nie, lg besar tanggungjwb.. ( owh so lame, skrg baru sedar )

ya.. sebab, sblm nie cakap ja. tidak sama bila melaluinya sendiri.. i mean, mom already ask whether i have a gf or not and so and so..
haiysh..
it's not that i hate that kind of question, but how am i gonna answer it?
i know.. she cares too much, well.. dia risau kalau aku masih ingat ex aku, and sbb tue aku single smpai skrg.

mom..
believe me. i'm fine :)
this has nothing to do with my previous experience. it's just i don't meet the right person yet.
xkan la mo kelam kabut ada gf rite.. nt x kemana susah jg..
yalah, bukan budak2 lagi.. im an adult already, mest la mo cari gf yg bole betul2 jd komitmen..
kalo boleh, i don't want a gf.. but, nowadays mcm mana mo deter perangai dia kalo x kenal as gf?
i don't know lah..

bukan senang mo cari perempuan ajak kawin terus kn.
mau dia cakap aku nie pelik nt..
well, tue lah budaya d malaysia. what to do ~~

nvm that, the important thing is i believe that this life is a wonderful journey..
i'm not gonna feel sympathy to myself just because i don't have someone beside me.
well, Allah always there for me :)

i have faith within u Allah.
if i've already meet the right person, please make it easy for me to realize..
and make it easy for me and her to go through..
amin..

anyway, right now..
focus on my priority..
live for the sake of Allah.
live to comfort my mom and dad.
achieve all my ambition.
and, i believe love will always coming along the way.
never lose hope. always remember Allah know's best..

staring at the ceiling and remembering the old days.. No matter how hard life is, Life must go on. Don't give up. always have faith ;)