love before marriage?

Staring at the moon and the star, makes me pondering how beautiful this world our creator has made us. This beautiful night make's me wonder, what is love? is it true that, "the most beautiful thing in the world can't be seen or touch. it must be felt with the heart." Why heart?

When I look back, my previous experience. It's make me cautious with my current path that I've been through. I mean, In many terms, family, friends, and love. Love before marriage? When I was a kid, my mom and dad always warn me not play around with girls. I mean, like most of parents they will say " jgn bcinta2.. habis belajar dlu, habis sekolah dulu baru fikir cari perempuan." I hear this words, since my high school. I wonder, why? during that time, I'm looking for the answer, why can't love somebody we like, when she felt the same way too? yet, it's come from the heart. can we control our feeling? All of this question left behind with a no specific answer. So, my life goes on as any other kids and I start to fall in love, and start to care about someone else, a so-called "cinta monyet".

I have a countless ex during my teenager's life and yet, there's nothing to be proud of that. I'm not proud of it, not even a bit. With all of the experience I've been through, I wonder why is it really hard to love and to be love? Why love is not easy as it seems as we seen on the movies or novel. Is holding hand, hugs, kissing, and etc is what love really means? I was one of the victim within a billion in this world that believe all of that are the key element to understand what love is. I mean, holding hand, hugs. who doesn't want all those kind of things? I mean, when we love someone. For sure we will all those kind of things towards our love one right. It's a natural feeling, It's how we are functioning, It's a bless from Allah to give us those kind of feeling, comfort, love, care, and etc. And yet, why when we doing all this forbidden things before marriage it's not making us feel any happier? why we would feel the other way?

“…and do not come near Zina; indeed, it is an abomination and an evil way” (Al-Isra’: 32)

the answer is within this phrase of Quran. Indeed, the words of Allah are the best guidance to all the human being. I mean, it's natural to a human being to feel guilty when they are doing something which is forbidden by Allah. This is also the sign of the last age, as we refer to this hadis.

”Dan tinggallah manusia-manusia yang buruk, yang seenaknya melakukan persetubuhan seperti himar (keldai). Maka pada zaman mereka inilah kiamat akan datang.” – Sahih Muslim

Are we ready for the last day? are we ready to face Allah in his judgement day?

This year, I'm already 23 years old and insyaAllah, I'm finishing my bachelor in law and commerce by the end of this year. When people ask me, what will you do next?

My answer is plain and clear. " simpan duit, kawin." When some of my friend laughing or question my intention to be married early, I just smile and I ask, why would you have a so called GF when u are not intended to marry her? If u really love her, marry her, protect her dignity. Don't just say u love her, and give so many excuse when it comes to responsibility. Believe that Allah is the one that given sustenance to us. Work hard, and always keep a good faith in what u do. InsyaAllah, Allah is merciful and loving. He know's best for us.

As to answer, the question about love before marriage. I just can say, it depends on the interpretation of the person in what love really means to him/her. When u think love is about all those physical things, believe me. It wont last. But if u believe that love is more than that, beyond all those things, believe me. Follow what Allah has ordain us to follow. Love come from him, and we have to always remember that never ever love a person, more than we love him.

If your fathers, your sons, your brothers, your wives, your kindred, the wealth that you have gained, the commerce in which you fear a decline, and the dwellings in which you delight ... are dearer to you than Allah and His Messenger, and striving hard and fighting in His Cause , then wait until Allah brings about His Decision (torment). And Allah guides not the people who are Al-Fasiqun (the rebellious, disobedient to Allah). (Surah At-tawbah 24)

This means, have to be grateful in what Allah have given to us. How can we not love him when we know that all we have is a bless from him. That is why, we need to realize what is love, how to love, and what is the sources of love before we ought to know what love really is.

I hope she's the one that been meant to be for me. Ya Allah, jagalah hati kami, lindungi hati ini dari perkara2 yg engkau murkai. sekiranya dia jodohku, permudahkn perjalanan ini dan satukan hati kami dalam keberkatan mu. sesungguhnya, engkau tahu apa yg terbaik utk hamba2 mu. tQ Allah. tQ for always been there in all my journey in this life.

The road ahead may be full with obstacle, no matter how hard it is..

i really hope i can get through all of it with u.

may u be the one for me, and i'm the one for u.

insyaAllah..

together we hope Allah bless u and me.

hopefully, jodoh kita ada.

amin :)

"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies."

-Aristotle-

2012

Alhamdulillah.. kita sudah melangkah ke tahun yg baru.

skrg nie aku jarang update blog, bukan sebab aku abaikan blog nie.

cuma aku x tahu, apa yg aku perlu update. hehe..

actually, lots of stories i wanna share cuma idea xda utk tulis..

Well, its 2012.

ohoo.. prediction says its gonna be the end of the world at this year.

its it true?

well,

islam explain to us that the actual date and time regarding to the end of day is in the knowledge of Allah alone. Only he, knows when will this world end.

Simple kan?

tapi ramai juga yg post d fb, ramalan2 hari kiamat.. 21 hb 12 tue hari jumaat la. bulan puasa la.. bla bla bla..

Wey.. jangan cakap pasal kiamat besar la. cerita pasal kiamat kecil, kita nie manusia. anytime boley mati. daripada sibuk fikir pasal bila hari kiamat.. baik fikir pasal amalan kita. kalo esok kita mati, kalo hari nie hari terakhir kita utk hidup dan Allah tarik nyawa kita.

adakah kita sudah bersedia?

Anyway, tahun nie.. adalah tahun terakhir aku bergelar student. InsyaAllah i will get my degree this year :)

may Allah bless my journey..

lepas nie, kerja sudey..

kerja.. kena la kumpul duit. mo kawin..

ohoo.. selama nie dgr org cakap mcm tue, rasa mcm jauh lg turn aku. rupanya skrg nie turn ak pula da utk fikir semua tue..

yep. mest lah fikir kan. i want a bless relationship and yes. the only way to be bless is to be married. insyaAllah. hopefully ada jodoh dan ada rezeki dgn kekasih hati :)

there's a lot of obstacle in my journey ahead, hopefully Allah will increase my faith and may Allah guide me always in his right path. insyaAllah :)

never give up!

always have faith in our lord..

true love..

”Aku mengabdi kepada Allah bukan kerana takut kepada neraka, bukan pula ingin masuk syurga.. tetapi aku mengabdikan diri kerana cintaku dan rinduku padaNya. Tuhanku jika kupuja Engkau kerana takutkan neraka bakarlah aku di dalamnya. jika kupuja Engkau kerana mengharapkan syurga jauhkanlah aku daripadanya, tetapi jika Engkau ku puja semata-mata kerana Engkau maka janganlah sembunyikan kecantikanMu yang kekal dariku.”

Rabia'tul Adawiyah.

dear parents..

Mom n Dad..

thank's for always be there for me through thick and thin.

may Allah bless both of u always.

.i love u.

its all about your heart..

I dont mind your odd behavior

Its the very thing I love

If you were an ice cream flavor

You would be my favorite one

My imagination sees you

Like a painting by Van Gogh

Starry nights and bright sunflowers

follow you where you may go

Oh,I´ve loved you from the start

In every single way

And more each passing day

You are brighter than the stars

Believe me when I say

Its not about your scars

Its all about your heart

You´re a butterfly held captive

Small and safe in your cocoon

Go on you can take your time

Time is said to heal all wounds

Oh,I´ve loved you from the start

In every single way

And more each passing day

You are brighter than the stars

Believe me when I say

Its not about your scars

Its all about your heart

Like a lock without a key

Like a mystery without a clue

There is no me if I cannot have you

Oh,I´ve loved you from the start

In every single way

And more each passing day

You are brighter than the stars

Believe me when I say

Its not about your scars

Its all about your heart

- It's all about your heart, Mindy Gledhill.

i'm really touch by this song.. thx for dedicating me this song..

thx for accepting me for who i am..

u make me feel better each day. i can't promise that i'll be there for u always. but i know that i'll try my best to keep u safe in my heart..

ilysm :)

tentang dia

its been a long journey..

only Allah knows, what I've been through all along until i meet her..

this post i write, to express what i really experience along the way..

cerita pasal cinta nie.. mest ramai org fikir pasal holding hands, sweet2, romantic2 bagai, thats so called typical korea love story right..

Alhamdulillah its not me.

what i wanna say here is my love towards her is more than just physical interaction.

i always keep deep in my heart, that i wanna protect her, care about her, love her.. more than she could ever imagine.

apa yg aku rasa nie, aku sudah simpan dalam hati masa aku masih single lg. i mean, i've promise to myself that one day if i had to love again and if its love before marriage. im not gonna repeat the same mistake that ive ever did before.

my point is.. bila sudah cinta nie. tidak lah semestinya jumpa hari2. tidak semestinya perlu holding hands. tidak semestinya perlu kiss2 pipi or all sort of things..

if that is how we want to show our love before married.

i can say that it is not love.

it is more to " i lust u"

Alhamdulillah.. we have been together for a moment.

and she once tell me, it would be wonderful to love after married.

apa aku jawab?

ya. mmg betul. sgt indah.. sbb tiada lagi restriction, tiada lagi mo hati2, tiada lagi mo risau apa2..

there's no boundaries anymore :)

aku cuma boley bgtau dia, buat masa nie dgn keadaan kita yg masih mcm nie. cukuplah sekadar kita jaga hati kita masing2..

mungkin ini adalah ujian utk kita, melihat sekuat mana kita bersandarkn cinta pada ilahi ataupun bersandarkn cinta itu pada nafsu..

jika cinta ini bersandarkn pada nafsu semata2, cinta yg melebihi ingatnya kita pada Allah. percayalah, cinta ini tidak akan sampai ke mana. tetapi jika cinta ini d sandarkan pada tujuan yg benar, mengharapkn keredhaan ilahi. insyaAllah pasti cinta ini akan bawa kita lebih dkt padanya :)

that's why..

aku ingatkan padanya, jgn rasa ujian ini suatu kekurangan utk kita.

aku mahu dia tahu, yg cinta ini sesukar mana pun.. jika tahu, one day di restui dgn keberkatan ilahi. d ikat dgn ikatan perkahwinan. pasti akan membahagiakn. pasti kita akan lebih menghargai kepayahan yg kita lalui pada saat ini.

naluri utk syg menyanyang itu adalah lumrah kita sebagai manusia, tapi kita mestilah menjaga perasaan syg itu dr d cemari oleh nafsu semata2.

cinta yg di bertuhankan nafsu sudah pasti akan membawa kepada kebinasaan..

anyway, there's a lot of things that make's me attracted to her.

tp, benda yg paling aku suka pada dia..

adalah agamanya :)

every time i talk to her, mesti relate dgn keagungan tuhan.

how can i not fall in love to her, kalo benda yg dia suka adalah benda yg sama aku suka?

aku selalu berdoa moga2 di temukan dgn wanita yg mahu mendekatkan diri dgn Allah, at the same time will make me getting close to Allah as well.

and when im with her, rasa berharap aku pada Allah itu lebih menggunung lg.

i mean, bukan lah sebab aku x sabar mahu kawin dgn dia tapi rasa mahu Allah tolong jaga hati dia.

rasa mahu Allah redhai hubungan ini.

rasa mahu Allah senangkn perjalanan kami berdua.

itu semua adalah rasa lemahnya diri aku, yg membuatkn aku lebih mengharap pada tuhan..

at last i know how it feel to be patience and to control myself. restraining myself from her.

jika ini ujian mu padaku ya Allah, aku redha hadapinya. jika dialah jodohku tiada yg lebih indah selain dari engkau berkati dan permudahkan lah perjalanan kami.

only Allah know best.

tQ Allah :)