- the system -

okei.. hari nie. aku mahu menulis tentang pengalaman aku sendiri. This is about " the system "
hurm.. i guess not everyone are exposed to wat is "the system" right..

okei.. kalo mahu tahu lebih detail pasal " the system " tue.. sila buka laman web 'wake up project' kayh..
watch the Arrival ( part 1 - 51 )
yea.. a lot of series.. but worth watching.
who knows maybe it can change ur life. forever..

back to the story.
ada satu hari nie..
aku pegi hang out. Rumah kawan aku..
and then, suddenly dia tanya..

- zaCk.. apa juga the arrival nie?

then aku explain la dgn dia..
kalo ko mahu tahu lebih lanjut psl the arrival nie. ko kena tgk sndiri..
itu lagi cepat ko faham. banding aku explain..
than.. dia tanya lagi.

- zaCk.. pls explain to me. i really dun get this.. =.="

dia baru tgk 1 episod. dia confused da.. huhu.
so aku pun explain la dgn dia. okei.. this is only basic kayh..
u wanna accept it or not about what im gonna tell u. its up to u kayh..
cuz benda nie. bukan semua org bole terima..

then aku explain la dgn dia about the system..
i guess.. our arguement take about 2 and a half hours maybe.
huh~

okei.. so aku pun cakap la dgn dia. kta zaman skrg nie. hidup dalam sistem.
kita nie.. x bebas pun utk buat apa ja kita mahu.
compare la diri kita skrg dgn org dulu2..
mana yg lg bebas?

org dulu2.. dorg teda limitation utk buat apa sahaja dorg mahu.. i mean dorg bole jadi penulis, dorg bole jadi tukang masak, dorg bole jadi blacksmith, dorg bole jadi penuai padi. there's no scroll to judge who u can be.. and who u really wanna be. bukan mcm skrg..
everyone need their degree scroll to be A person.
maybe.. at this point u still can argue my point right.
okei.. tp cuba compare lagi..
org dulu2.. dorg bole ja travel anywhere dorg mahu. tanpa limitation.
skrg?
if u don't have a valid travel passport u can't go anywhere..

sO, i continue my explanation..
aku cakap lg dgn dia.
ko rasa, hidup ko skrg nie best ka?
i gv u example.. kalo kita nie da habis belajar.
kita kerja.. work start from 9 am - 5 pm.
everyday, mcm tue ja..
ko x rasa benda tue boring ka? ko x rasa. hidup ko tue. utk kerja ja?
hv u ever think about it?
yea. mmg la betul. zaman skrg nie kita kena kerja utk dptkn nafkah. dptkn duit..
tapi. pernah ka kita fikir yg kita punya hidup nie. it's more than that.

aku cakap lg dgn dia. kalo ko tgk ada satu episod dlm the Arrival tue. dia cakap mcm mana illuminati nie. buat kita punya life nie. mcm Batteri ja. kerja kerja kerja.
cukup bulan. bayar hutang. bayar loan kereta. bayar loan rumah. bayar itu dan ini.
alih2.. xda pa2 juga kita nie. that is how the system work. to make your life compact. u can't have your own life.

"The system" is all about Illuminati.

So, aku cont lagi explanation aku dgn dia..
aku cakap. ko rasa la. apa yg ko belajar di sekolah tue. apa yg ko kena exposed di sekolah, di Universiti tue benda yg betul ka?
seberapa yakin lah kau sumber yg ko dpt dari buku sekolah tue. BETUL?

sampai part nie. dia da byk da argue..

- zaCk.. kalo bukan sebab ilmu yg kita belajar di sekolah. di U tue. mesti kita x hidup mcm skrg.
mest jahiliah ja.. kita x tahu apa2..

aku pun cakap la dgn dia. okei.. kalo rasa apa yg ko belajar tue betul. kalo ko rasa kita nie x jahiliah. kenapa hidup kita skrg mcm blik pegi zaman jahiliah ja?
im not saying apa yg kita belajar di sekolah. d U nie.. x betul. tp aku fikir ja.. berapa jauh kebenaran ilmu yg kita dpt nie.

to make it simple.
kita skrg nie la.. belajar law.
ko tahu kn. betapa byknya loop hole undang2 malaysia nie..
kita belajar. semua undang2 yg ada di malaysia nie. and kita tahu. undang2 yg di cipta oleh manusia nie sgt2 tidak sempurna. sama juga dgn hakikat kejadian Manusia tue sendiri..
tiada yg sempurna.
okei. kita tahu hakikat nie. tp kenapa, kta masih juga mahu melaksanakn undang2 manusia?

Allah s.w.t tue.. Tuhan pencipta alam, yg maha adil, maha penyayang.. lagi maha mengetahui..
sudah cipta undang2 dia. utk kita org islam.. bukan sahaja org islam. tp seluruh umat manusia.

kita sedia tahu, undang2 tuhan tue adalah yg paling sempurna.
kita tahu. hukum hudud itu adalah yg terbaik.
tapi kenapa kita tidak mahu laksanakn benda tue?

ini, in my point of view lah kayh..
kalo kita nie, betul2 yakin dgn Allah sekalian alam. kita tidak akan mempersoalkn Hukum hudud tue. kita tidak akan mencipta undang2 lain, selain mengikut undang2 islam yg sudah di tetapkn..

tapi.. berapa ramai antara kita yg fikir semua nie?
kita sendiri tahu. undang2 yg kta laksanakn di Malaysia skrg nie. adalah berdasarkn undang2 manusia yg di cipta oleh british.

- tapi zaCk.. undang2 yg kita belajar skrg nie. adil juga bha.. aku mahu jadi lawyer. tapi aku lawyer yg out of corruption. x buat benda2 jahat semua. x amik rasuah n etc..

hurm... apa ko fikir kalo buat satu rumah. tapi rumah tue bahan2 dia.. dari tandas..
besar mana pun rumah ko tue. tapi bahan dia dari tempat kotor.. busuk juga rumah ko kn?

itu example ja kayh.. maksud aku. kita mahu buat benda baik. tp berasaskn benda yg sudah tidak baik. hasil dia tetap sama juga. tidak baik.
im not saying i can judge samada tuhan mo cakap itu bdosa ka ataw apa ka. itu di luar kemampuan aku utk menilai.
tapi as a Muslim. and aku tahu pasal benda tue tidak betul. still, aku mahu enforced benda tue..

aku x mahu lah..
biarlah aku kerja ja law firm, urus2 hartanah. aku x mahu lah libatkn diri aku dlm undang2 berkaitan manusia nie.. choose who right who's wrong.. idk. i dun wanna get involve in that kind of thing.. cuz aku suda tahu betapa byk yg tidak adil dlm sistem undang2 malaysia nie. still aku mahu buat benda yg baik dr situ. aku x boleh lah.. aku bukan cakap aku nie alim atau apa. tapi, aku mahu jadi seorg muslim yg baik. aku x mahu di soal di akhirat nt. aku x mampu utk jawab..
i've done a lot of sins through my life, and i promise to be a better person. dan utk menjadi a better person tue. aku kena bersandarkn kehidupan aku dgn islam. islam is the best way of life.

- ntah la zaCk.. aku rasa skrg nie, aku comfortable ja dgn apa aku buat. aku rasa, x salah juga bha.. kita enforced undang2 nie. yg penting kita adil. tidak buat jahat dgn org lain.

yea.. up to u..
huhu. like i said. aku x paksa pun utk ko terima semua yg aku cakap nie.
u want the truth.
u hv to find it urself. if u think that wat u experienced in ur life right now is the truth.
than stick with it. im not saying all the stuff that i've said is the truth.
u wanna know the truth?
u hv to find it. that is the way of life..
im finding my way. and u find ur way..

So, itu lah cerita di sebalik arguement kawan aku dgn aku. psl the system.
sebenarnya, byk lg benda yg dia argue. tapi, i cant mention it here. cuz i think its to personal and to controversial to write.

anyway. i hope we all share's wats good for us.
kalo ada yg x betul and tidak stuju dgn pendapat aku. silalah beritahu saya k..
a good muslim will always remind his brother..

Kau begitu sempurna
Dimataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujimu

Disetiap langkahku
Kukan slalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna... Sempurna...

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna... Sempurna...

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku


- i use to sing this song 4 u.. huhu..
what a beautiful memory we had..
the sad part is.. it jz a memory ~

- im sorry -

im sorry 4 wat ive wrote.. a week ago at my fb..
i dont mean to hurt u.
im so egois..
saying all that stupid words..

i jz..
i dunno..
i do think about u too..

im jz really mad when u deactivated ur fb because of me..
im really 3x mad..

u jz dunno what it feels when there always sum1 for u there
n.. suddenly.
disappear... =.="

hurm..
i dunno wat i feel..
i dunno wat i write too..

anyway..
im sorry kayh.

i did'nt mean to hurt u..
to make u cry..

pls don't..

kalo syg saya..
dun cry 4 me again k..

cuz i dun want ur tears run dry cuz of me =.="
jz smile k :)

be happy whenever im around..

- Holiday -

hi.. hehe. its been a long time im not writing anything here..
most of my post nowadays are a song lyrics.
and all of the lyrics are related to me..
im not that type of person that going to post anything here that are not related to me..

my holiday jz started.. 28 til 14 june.
hurm.. 2 minggu ja.
mls la mo blik sabah..

mayb this time im going to hv a vacation on penang island.
yeah..
i dunno y i wanna go there.
maybe sbb tempat lahir kot? hehe..

ntah la.. g penang or kedah?
i dunno.. i hv to choose wisely :)
i wanna hv a chill and relax vacation..

em anyway.. last nite. i hangout wit my lecturer and she told me that she's going for a holiday at perth Australia.. OMG..
i wanna go too!!
dia cakap. d sna stay dgn dia pnya aunt..
hurm.. bestnya. bila dgr lagi cerita dia sal perth. oWh.. i cant w8 to go there...
dia ajak pegi juga.. yea. me, tasha, iqa and all the girls team =.="
maybe im the only one guy kot. adeh..

bajet2 sblom nie.. mo beli tV, mo beli xBox 360, mo beli desktop.. tp bila daa dgr tawaran g holiday nie. huhhh~
xle tolak lorh.. mo pegi juga! huhu...

who cant resist oO?
bukan slalu ada peluang mo g holiday oversea..
lebih2 g.. ada guide. guide tue kta kenal plak tue..
hurm.. mest best. pasni pasport aku da ada cop singapore, indon, beijing, PERTH..
waaa.. bestnya~~~~~

sO xbox.. desktop.. sabar2 lah ek.
i cant buy u now :(
i hv sumthing more important to catch..

hurm.. okei. next stori..
my life now? hepi =)

ive got a lot of lovely friends..
xda gf? x heran lorh..
byk ja kawan ppuan yg syg sy.. kalah lg gf syg kali..
ya lorh.. kalo gf nie. asek ja la mo merajuk mo gaduh..
kalo setakat best friend.. xdanya dia mo merajuk segala bagai kn.
kalo merajuk ka pa pun. so wat? u r not my gf lorh.. jgn le marajuk2.. hehe..

best lorh. eventhough sumtimes rasa mo ja ada gf..
tp i still can't..
i dun really think that anyone can accept me the way i am.
meaning to say that im jz not meet the right person yet.

malas la mo kelam kabut ada gf.. then ada gf. benda sama juga jadi balik2..
penat da ada gf curang nie.. haihh =.="
letih..

baek aku single ja lama2.. da abes studi. da travel around d world..
baru fikir sal mo ada relationship nie. i mean SERIOUS relationship..
rite now?
i dun think that im jz to gOod for anyone.
xyah la mo promo syg, cinta, segala bagai..
suma yg aku penah kenal dlu pon cakap camtu gak..

alih2..
lek ja.. pasang laen.. =.="
funny.. but its true..

my next gf?
yea.. i hope she's gonna be the one who prove to me that sHe really love me..
if she depends on me to always catch on her~
oH sowei babe...
im not going to be that person anymore..
penat da mo bcinta mcm tue. cam budak2 ja..
im not going to express my feeling easily this time..
no matter how close we are

yes, i'll done my part.. but if u r not doing anything..
xyah la mo eksen mcm miss Universe..
if u think u hv a lot of choice.. sO do i =)

hurm.. mcm marah lak posting nie.. adei..
xdalah ek. x marah pon. jz meluah. hehe.
da nama pon blogging kn..

em..
lastly.. aritue, jumpa my brother.. and his wife.. ngan anak dia.
sedih plak rasa masa tue taw =(
yalah. rasa cam lama sgt x jumpa dorg nie..
specially my niece..
omg..
dia da besar... 7 tahun..
adei.. skejapnya masa. mcm baru smlm tgk dia baru belajar jln. blajar mo bcakap.
sekali jumpa.. naa pandai da merengek2 dgn segala bagai dia kalo x dpt apa dia mo..
huhu. sekejapnya masa..

huhh.. baru anak buah. aku da bole sedih..
pa lagi kalo aku ada anak eh?
mmg aku xmo lepas la dari aku.. huhu..
i dun really know how to entertain kids, but i do like kids..

hurm mom..
i miss u..
dad..
i miss u..

there's no other moment that going to be a special moment..
rather than the moment being with u both.
i'll appreciate every moment that i spent with u..
i love u both.
so much..

hujung tahun.. pas sy pulang dr perth.. kta p umrah ek..
hee~~

- secret -

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
'Til all my sleeves are stained red

From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve

And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'ma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, all my secrets away

For the one who's gonna be my future girls :)

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking,
lying waiting as the time goes by.
I think of you with every breath I take,
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you all so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything.
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you.
Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
I didn't think that it would be,
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real
to know that you feel the same as I do
is a three fold utopian dream
you do something to me
that I can't explain
so would I be out of line
if I said
I miss you

I see your picture
I smell your skin
on the empty pillow
next to mine
you have only been gone 10 days
but already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon
but I need you to know
that I care
and I miss you