- Holiday -

hi.. hehe. its been a long time im not writing anything here..
most of my post nowadays are a song lyrics.
and all of the lyrics are related to me..
im not that type of person that going to post anything here that are not related to me..

my holiday jz started.. 28 til 14 june.
hurm.. 2 minggu ja.
mls la mo blik sabah..

mayb this time im going to hv a vacation on penang island.
yeah..
i dunno y i wanna go there.
maybe sbb tempat lahir kot? hehe..

ntah la.. g penang or kedah?
i dunno.. i hv to choose wisely :)
i wanna hv a chill and relax vacation..

em anyway.. last nite. i hangout wit my lecturer and she told me that she's going for a holiday at perth Australia.. OMG..
i wanna go too!!
dia cakap. d sna stay dgn dia pnya aunt..
hurm.. bestnya. bila dgr lagi cerita dia sal perth. oWh.. i cant w8 to go there...
dia ajak pegi juga.. yea. me, tasha, iqa and all the girls team =.="
maybe im the only one guy kot. adeh..

bajet2 sblom nie.. mo beli tV, mo beli xBox 360, mo beli desktop.. tp bila daa dgr tawaran g holiday nie. huhhh~
xle tolak lorh.. mo pegi juga! huhu...

who cant resist oO?
bukan slalu ada peluang mo g holiday oversea..
lebih2 g.. ada guide. guide tue kta kenal plak tue..
hurm.. mest best. pasni pasport aku da ada cop singapore, indon, beijing, PERTH..
waaa.. bestnya~~~~~

sO xbox.. desktop.. sabar2 lah ek.
i cant buy u now :(
i hv sumthing more important to catch..

hurm.. okei. next stori..
my life now? hepi =)

ive got a lot of lovely friends..
xda gf? x heran lorh..
byk ja kawan ppuan yg syg sy.. kalah lg gf syg kali..
ya lorh.. kalo gf nie. asek ja la mo merajuk mo gaduh..
kalo setakat best friend.. xdanya dia mo merajuk segala bagai kn.
kalo merajuk ka pa pun. so wat? u r not my gf lorh.. jgn le marajuk2.. hehe..

best lorh. eventhough sumtimes rasa mo ja ada gf..
tp i still can't..
i dun really think that anyone can accept me the way i am.
meaning to say that im jz not meet the right person yet.

malas la mo kelam kabut ada gf.. then ada gf. benda sama juga jadi balik2..
penat da ada gf curang nie.. haihh =.="
letih..

baek aku single ja lama2.. da abes studi. da travel around d world..
baru fikir sal mo ada relationship nie. i mean SERIOUS relationship..
rite now?
i dun think that im jz to gOod for anyone.
xyah la mo promo syg, cinta, segala bagai..
suma yg aku penah kenal dlu pon cakap camtu gak..

alih2..
lek ja.. pasang laen.. =.="
funny.. but its true..

my next gf?
yea.. i hope she's gonna be the one who prove to me that sHe really love me..
if she depends on me to always catch on her~
oH sowei babe...
im not going to be that person anymore..
penat da mo bcinta mcm tue. cam budak2 ja..
im not going to express my feeling easily this time..
no matter how close we are

yes, i'll done my part.. but if u r not doing anything..
xyah la mo eksen mcm miss Universe..
if u think u hv a lot of choice.. sO do i =)

hurm.. mcm marah lak posting nie.. adei..
xdalah ek. x marah pon. jz meluah. hehe.
da nama pon blogging kn..

em..
lastly.. aritue, jumpa my brother.. and his wife.. ngan anak dia.
sedih plak rasa masa tue taw =(
yalah. rasa cam lama sgt x jumpa dorg nie..
specially my niece..
omg..
dia da besar... 7 tahun..
adei.. skejapnya masa. mcm baru smlm tgk dia baru belajar jln. blajar mo bcakap.
sekali jumpa.. naa pandai da merengek2 dgn segala bagai dia kalo x dpt apa dia mo..
huhu. sekejapnya masa..

huhh.. baru anak buah. aku da bole sedih..
pa lagi kalo aku ada anak eh?
mmg aku xmo lepas la dari aku.. huhu..
i dun really know how to entertain kids, but i do like kids..

hurm mom..
i miss u..
dad..
i miss u..

there's no other moment that going to be a special moment..
rather than the moment being with u both.
i'll appreciate every moment that i spent with u..
i love u both.
so much..

hujung tahun.. pas sy pulang dr perth.. kta p umrah ek..
hee~~

- secret -

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
'Til all my sleeves are stained red

From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve

And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'ma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, all my secrets away

For the one who's gonna be my future girls :)

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking,
lying waiting as the time goes by.
I think of you with every breath I take,
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you all so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything.
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you.
Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
I didn't think that it would be,
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real
to know that you feel the same as I do
is a three fold utopian dream
you do something to me
that I can't explain
so would I be out of line
if I said
I miss you

I see your picture
I smell your skin
on the empty pillow
next to mine
you have only been gone 10 days
but already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon
but I need you to know
that I care
and I miss you

i dunno if u read this or not..
it jz im not mad at u last nite.
my line is not stable..
thats y i suddenly off9 from my fb..

dun deactivate ur fb :(
i will miss u..
u r such a good friend...

mOm.. i miss u :(

Happy bday =)

.jz like a machine with an empty feeling.

im

really

empty

this memory is killing me.

- i miss u -

hurm..
do u really miss me?
do u?

i sumtimes, i jz dunno who u really are anymore..
u said.. syg lah.. rindu lah.
but then.
still.. u jz come, n go..
i din see any effort from u..
to catch me.

huh?
sounds mcm aku lak ppuan..
x kesah la.
if u really love sum1. y would u keep silent..
its not like i nvr try.
i try everything to be wit u.
i try..
until i already lost in my own illusion..

but still?
same answer.

~ confuse ~

its up to u la dear..
i guess im jz not so important 4 u though..
if im really that someone in ur life.
u wont jz come n go from me..

im tired to be treat like that..

i dunno la..
sumtimes, i really wish i could meet u again..
u jz dunno.. how much i miss the old u..

- Focus -

yeay..
its a xm week. adeii.. my paper is on khamis, sabtu & ahad..

until now, ive seat 2 paper already..
eng n marketing.
esok soga.. aku x taw la pa aku mo jawab tue =.="

hurm.. okei. bbalik kepada topik post aku kali nie.
yea.. fokus..
aku x taw kenapa, tapi ayat tue asek ja bmain d kepala aku.

" u r not fokus z, u are not "

hurm.. tue la ayat sis aku sma aku masa aku cuti hari tue.
and.. skrg nie. setelah beberapa minggu berlalu. tba2 ayat tue berdentam-dentum d kepala aku..
adei..
x fokus ka aku ya? hurm.. ya. maybe im not really focus.. suruh p studi. naa.. aku p flirting awek ja..
flirting sana sni. tp mo ada gf takut.. duii..
kin malu ja.. =.="

anyway, ada sorg bha awek nie. agak2 cute ar. adei.. mmg taste2 aku la.. kecik2, comey.. manja laek.. mmg melting la aku kalo sma dia. haha..

d prob is, im tired actually.
feeling epi, seronok nie.. awl2 ja.. mls deii aku mo frust2 laek. mls bha mo bcinta maen2 nie.
bukan budak2 laek. taun depan, aku mo abes studi da =.="
lagi mo bcinta cam budak skolah ka? break, on.. break on..
adei.. penat suda aku gtuu..

bha bbalik kpd awek yg aku minat tue.. hoho.
yea aku minat dia. tp ntah la.. there's sumthing inside me blocking me. hold me, from move on to the next step. hurm.. x taw la napa gtu..
dia ska aku ka x tue. itu cita laen.. aku x kesah pon kalo dia reject aku. tp, yg aku kisah..
kalo lah aku cakap aku suka dia. aku mo dia jadi gf aku.. but then. aku x dpt jadi bf yg baek?
aku x dapat jaga dia camna aku supposely jaga dia?
naa.. masalah tue.. itu big problem =.="
hurm.. anyway. aku nie pikir lebey2 lak kan.. dia suka aku pon x..
aku pula mo pikir sal suma nie.. haha.. adei.. zack2..

anyway. kalo lah awek tue suka org laen pun. aku okei ja la kali..
yalah.. im jz not confident with myself. with everything that i've been through. its not easy 4 me. to love n to be love.. wat for i got u now, n then i've to let u go afterward?
im tired of letting go.. n im tired of ppl gving up on me..

hurm.. complex sgt kali otak aku nie. nie la mgkn awek2 aku dlu x tahan sama aku. haha..
adeii..

anyway, thx sis 4 saying that words to me..
" u r not really focus.. "

kalo bukan sal ayat tue.. maybe, aku akan jz follow ja feeling aku nie.. =.="

U.. thx 4 being a good friend.
thx 4 cheering me up when i was down.
thx =)

- cerita semalam -

hari nie.. punya la boring.
aku ngantok g. tp x dpt tdo..

erm.. smlm~
smlm, aku and housemate aku kemas2 umah.
kitorg buang smpah yg aku rasa ada la dlm 8 beg plastik besar.
adei.. bayangkn tue?
tp dun get it wrong k.. itu bukan sampah basah yg daily household..
itu sampah yg barang2 lama kami x pakai. baju2 buruk suda..
adei..

pa2 pun, mmg penat la smlm. dari pagi. smpai ke ptg kemas umah..
exhausted gila aku~
yala.. suda la lama x exercise. tba2, buat keja nonstop lak.. naa..

hurm.. pastu mlm. aku bajet2 mo tdo awal..
sekali kawan aku lak saket.
naa.. bawa la dia g hosp.

gtu gni.. dup dap. dap dup..

ada la sampai jam 3.30 aku stuck d hosp. tgu dia..
last2. doc suruh dia stay sna.

pastu, blk umah.. around 4 o'clock..
aku on fb aku.. biasalah. FB.. bini aku kn.
apa lagi aku mo cari kalo bukan FB aku.. haha..
tadi bajet2 mo tdo awal neyh. smpai umah.. terus x ngantok ..

hurm.. da tue.
kawan aku lak gtaw aku, ada girls nie ajak dia kapel.
aku pun g la tgk page ppuan tue. i mean her FB..
i was like.. omg.
punya la cantek. hahahaha..
adei.. ebat tul kawan aku neh. aku x taw la pa dia buat.
smpai ppuan tue ley confessed. mo sama dia.. =.="
pa2 pun.. kawan aku nie lek2 lu.
hold2 lu.. nt da ready baru dia mo.
zz.. mcm dia lak yg ppuan..
adeiiii....

huhh.. so, that is the story of yesterday~

naa.. kawan mo dpt gf suda. aku?
haha.. aku lek2 lu larh..
teda mo sama aku.
cmna jua kn~

cian =(